Saturday, January 30, 2010

I Miss You (There seems to be a theme going on here)



To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

I Miss You So Far (Cemetery Drive)




This night, walk the dead
In a solitary style
And crash the cemetery gates.
In the dress your husband hates
Way down, mark the grave
Where the search lights find us
Drinking by the mausoleum door
And they found you on the bathroom floor

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

Back home, off the run
Singing songs that make you slit your wrists
It isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun
So I won't stop dying, won't stop lying (are you there at all?)
If you want I'll keep on crying (do you care at all?)
Did you get what you deserve? (are you there at all?)
Is this what you always want me for?

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

When will I miss you, when will I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard
Made it so hard

Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down...

Monday, January 25, 2010

Automatic Joy

Indian food

Cadbury eggs

New York pizza

Children laughing

Mini Coopers

MCR

Ancient trees

Big, fluffy clouds


Friday, January 22, 2010

I'm a Little Bit in Love (or Maybe a Lot)

Please, leave all overcoats, canes and top hats with the doorman.

From that moment you'll be out of place and underdressed.

I'm wrecking this evening already and loving every minute of it.

Ruining this banquet for the mildly inspiring and...





Please, leave all overcoats, canes and top hats with the doorman.

From that moment you'll be out of place and underdressed.

I'm wrecking this evening already and loving every minute of it.

Ruining this banquet for the mildly inspiring and...



When you're in black slacks with accentuating, off-white, pinstripes

Whoa, everything goes according to plan.



I'm the new cancer, never looked better, you can't stand it.

Because you say so under your breath.

You're reading lips "When did he get all confident?"



Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?

Never looked better, and you can't stand it



Next is a trip to the, the ladies room in vain, and

I bet you just can't keep up with, (keep up) with these fashionistas, and

Tonight, tonight you are, you are a whispering campaign.

I bet to them your name is "Cheap", I bet to them you look like shh...



Talk to the mirror, oh, choke back tears.

And keep telling yourself that "I'm a diva!"

Oh and the smokes in that cigarette box on the table,

they just so happen to be laced with nitroglycerin.



I'm the new cancer, never looked better, you can't stand it.

Because you say so under your breath.

You're reading lips "When did he get all confident?"



Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?

Never looked better, and you can't stand it



Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?

I've never looked better, and you can't stand it



Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?

I've never looked better, and you can't stand it



And I know, and I know, it just doesn't feel like a night out with no one sizing you up.

I've never been so surreptitious, so of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch.



And I know, and I know, it just doesn't feel like a night out with no one sizing you up.

I've never been so surreptitious, so of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch.



And I know, and I know, it just doesn't feel like a night out with no one sizing you up.

I've never been so surreptitious, so of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Bartholomew Update

You're probably wondering, "Who the heck is Bartholomew?"  Bartholomew is a starfish.  A dead one.  A dead starfish picked up by Allie in Monterey and smuggled back to our garage almost two years ago.  Yes, she did. 

Bartholomew got a mention in my post about our road trip to Monterey, CA (my personal Heaven on Earth):  http://crapstain.blogspot.com/2008/03/road-trip.html

When I wrote that post, I had no idea that Bartholomew was in our garage.  Mischievous kids!  This makes me smile  :o)

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

I'm Cold. But Not THAT Cold.

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If you have the great misfortune of being in my close circle of friends, you've probably had the great privilege of enduring my whiney contemplations about moving back to Virginia.  Being not the most patient, let-it-all-unfold type, I've been pushing myself (and Todd) for an answer: stay or go.  We've done the Pro/Cons list, assessed the risks, drilled the kids (to see how much therapy they'll need after moving them across the country for the 4th time), and still have no definitive answer.  Plus, I've been cold to the point of hibernation the last couple weeks, so I'm not even enjoying this 70-degree Arizona winter, so why be here?  So, this morning I turned to what has always helped clear my head:  photographs.  And I came across this photograph of me, taken by Todd on a trip to Virginia in December of 2005:



Arizona's looking better and better all the time.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Happiness...


Saturday, January 16, 2010

Blast From the Past: Old Friends, My First 35mm Camera, and General Hospital

I am giggling just writing this!  This first picture is me (on the right, with my VERY FIRST 35mm camera) with my wonderful friend Lisa and her equally wonderful dad, circa 1990.  Lisa and I were stationed at DLI in the Air Force.  We lived next-door to each other for a while.  She was (and is) one of my favorite people on the entire planet.  She took a bunch of us down to LA to stay with her fam.  Great times!  Great memories!  I'm going to see Lisa soon...SO excited!



Lisa's dad worked at ABC studios and took us on a tour.  We played on the set of General Hospital.  I'm the one serving coffee on the far left.  Bwahahaha!  That was soooo fun!  Everything with Lisa was fun!



Disneyland, circa 1990.  Matt & me, hanging with the pigs!


Monday, January 11, 2010

New Year's Resolutions

I don't usually make New Year's Resolutions.  Mostly because I know I'm not going to keep them anyway, so why put forth the effort of thinking these things up?  This year, however, I made a few resolutions.

#1:  Take more hot bubble baths.  (So far, so good!  I've taken 4 hot bubble baths in the past 10 days and loved every second.)

#2:  Stop being a retard about cutting my hair.  (Check.  Hair is short.)

#3:  Spend more time with hubster and kids.  (So far, so good!  Todd and I are having more date night, the kids and I are doing more things together.  Bryce and I have more park days planned.  Someone gave us a huge airhockey table and we've all been playing together.)

#4:  Get some things I need/want for the business.  (Check.  Alienware computer with 12GB of RAM; 70-200mm f2.8 VRII and a few other small items coming in Feb.)

#5:  Go see my mom.  (Check.  Tickets will be bought in Feb. for our trip at the end of May/early June).

#6:  Be more positive and patient.  (Trying so very hard!  Doing pretty well...it's a process.)

#7:  Eat better.  (So far, bueno.)

And there you have it.  All things I should be doing anyway, so why does it take a new year to get into the game?  Shrug. 

Here are some pics Todd make Saturday evening as a prelude to date night (we went to Costa Vida and chowed...yum!).  Can't see the new haircut toooooo well, but there it is.  I plan on cutting it shorter next month.  Look at me, all daring.  haha.








Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Scary Crapstain!

I just walked into my bedroom and gazing adoringly at The Cuteness Known as Bryce (yes he still sleeps in our bed; I'm not ready to give that up) and noticed his lips were pale BLUE.  I panicked!  I thought he wasn't breathing, but a split second later, he twitched.  So, I leaned in to get a closer look and realized the blue lips were the result of a blue raspberry Bahama Buck's shaved ice I couldn't scrub completely off from his mouth last night. 

Scared the crap outta me!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

I Cut Off All My Hair! WHOO HOO!

Sorry, I don't have a picture to post, but I finally did it...I got my hair cut short. I've been wanting to do it for a while and finally got to the point that I was ready. Yesterday. And in a great Sign from the Universe, my hairdresser (who moved 2.5 hours away) was coming back to do hair. So, she popped in at 8 last night and took off over a foot of hair. You should've seen her...she was GIDDY with excitement. Why do hair dressers LOOOOVE to cut off long hair?

I will take a pic soon...I'm editing someone else's right now and am "pictured out."

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Surrender