Thursday, March 31, 2011

Time Warp

Ever since getting Bryce on a "normal" kid's sleep schedule (waking up before noon), i have far less time for blogging.  I'm so far behind on friends' blogs, it's shameful.  I'm caught up on the Self-Portrait Project, though, so i'll post a couple from that and say I LOVE YOU ALL and let's catch up soon!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

I Have Met the Devil

He is here in the form of Clusterfluff ice cream.  Ben & Jerry are his minions. I'm not usually a big fan of peanut butter (i look at it and all i can think is "aflatoxin" which takes the fun out of it), but this ice cream is worth ruining my waistline over.  Peanut butter ice cream with caramel cluster pieces (i also don't like caramel, but they've done some crazy magic voodoo on it in here and it's hellishly good), marshmallow swirls and peanut butt swirls.  Helloooooo Kitty!

Fun at Your Expense

If you are my friend on Facebook and you'd like to say "fuck" in a comment, please feel free to do so.  Ignore messages from a raging, rampant Mormon who tells you how you should talk, then proceeds to insult your intelligence and mock you. 

Yes, that really happened yesterday.  But they don't judge you, or try to manipulate or control you.  You are free to live your life as you choose, because they take their 11th Article of Faith to heart.  To the Mo's who truly do practice non-judgment, kudos to you!  You are a rarity!

"In His infinite wisdom, our all loving creator has given us a path to ultimate knowledge that is readily manipulated, misinterpreted, and subject to emotional interference." -Michael D. Golobic

So, when i sent a message to this kind and compassionate Mormon (who "loves one another") and asked him why he was harassing my friend, his reply (and i am NOT shitting you) was:  "For fun."

This sort of bullying goes all the way back to Brigham Young, so it doesn't surprise me when it pops up.  And no, that mean streak is not so openly apparent in ALL members of the Morg, but i've seen it far too many times.

Here are some real gems from Brigham (my emphasis added):

“Suppose you found your brother in bed with your wife, and put a javelin through both of them. You would be justified, and they would atone for their sins, and be received into the Kingdom of God. I would at once do so, in such a case; and under the circumstances, I have no wife whom I love so well that I would not put a javelin through her heart, and I would do it with clean hands.... There is not a man or woman, who violates the covenants made with their God, that will not be required to pay the debt. The blood of Christ will never wipe that out, your own blood must atone for it.”

- Prophet Brigham Young, Journal of Discourses, v. 1, pp. 108-109

“If you want to know what to do with a thief that you may find stealing, I say kill him on the spot, and never suffer him to commit another iniquity. I will prove by my works whether I can mete out justice to such persons, or not. I would consider it just as much my duty to do that, as to baptize a man for the remission of his sins.”

- Prophet Brigham Young, Journal of Discourses, v. 1, pp. 108-109

“Now take a person in this congregation who has knowledge with regard to being saved... and suppose that he has committed a sin that he knows will deprive him of that exaltation which he desires, and that he cannot attain to it without the shedding of blood, and also knows that by having his blood shed he will atone for that sin and may be saved and exalted with the God, is there a man or woman in this house but what would say, ‘shed my blood that I may be saved and exalted with the Gods?’”

- Prophet Brigham Young, Journal of Discourses, v. 4, pp. 219-220

“This is loving your neighbour as ourselves; if he needs help, help him; and if he wants salvation and it is necessary to spill his blood on the earth in order that he may be saved, spill it.”

- Prophet Brigham Young, Journal of Discourses, v. 4, p. 220

Thursday, March 24, 2011

The Breakup Dance { Painfully Beautiful }

I can't embed the video, so you'll have to go see it on YouTube, but it's so worth it to click over and watch.

My friend Michael posted this in one of our Facebook groups last night.  I literally cried watching it.  The choreography (thank you, Travis Wall) is amazing, and the dancers brought out the emotion so well.  The song fit perfectly, too.  I loved it all around. 

Monday, March 21, 2011

The Universal Stir { big-time F bomb warning for the clean-brained and brain-cleaned }

The Universe has got its finger in my pot, just a stirrin' away.  The past month has been just plain fucking weird.  Weird shit galore, i tell you.  Friends' loved-ones dying (x3), mind fuckery by people who claim to love me in the same breath as they dole out the mind fuckery.  Weird and unlikely loyalities from/for people that make ya stop and go "huh?"

Chaos is afoot.

It can only be good.

I think it means it's time to put some new ingredients in my pot.  It's time to switch things up.  And, as usual, if i don't get off my ass and do it myself, the Universe puts its big-ass finger in my pot and does it for me.

Thank you, Universe.  I love you!

Friday, March 18, 2011

Whaddaya Do? { edited }

What do you do when there's someone you care tons about, and this person has issues that prevent them (forgive my bad grammar, i'm just trying to be as non-specific as possible) from finding real happiness?  How do you tell them that all that drama is really not necessary, and neither is lying?  How do you convince them that they're lovable...capable of loving and deserving of being loved, when they obviously don't believe it?  What do you do when you see someone living from their childhood wounds and you just want to help them heal, but you don't know how?

I want to tell them the first step is being honest with yourself.  If you can be brave enough to be honest with yourself, it'll become possible to be honest with others.  That honesty will lead to trust.  That trust will lead to what you're looking for.

I want you to find that.  I hope that you do.

Here's wishing you the bluest sky
And hoping something better comes tomorrow
Hoping all the verses rhyme,
And the very best of choruses to
Follow all the doubt and sadness
I know that better things are on their way.

Here's hoping that the days ahead
Won't be as bitter as the ones behind you
Be an optimist instead,
And somehow happiness will find you.
Forget what happened yesterday,
I know that better things are on their way.

It's really good to see you rocking out
And having fun,
Living like you've just begun.
Accept your life and what it brings,
I hope tomorrow you find better things.
I know tomorrow you'll find better things.

Here's wishing you the bluest sky
And hoping something better comes tomorrow
Hoping all the verses rhyme,
And the very best of choruses to
Follow all the drudge and sadness
I know that better things are on the way.

I know you've got a lot of good things happening up ahead.
The past is gone, it's all been said.
So here's to what the future brings,
I know tomorrow you'll find better things.
I know tomorrow you'll find better things.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Excited About Life

After a bit of a rough spot over the past couple weeks, i've been getting pretty excited about life.  Honestly, sometimes (actually quite often), i can take it or leave it.  Lately, though, i feel an excitement brewing deep within me and bubbling its way up to the surface.

I like this.

And i've found a god i love.  Read about her here (in the Post Edit):

{ thank you, Amy, my darling, for that! }

and, just for a giggle, here's the photo from my AZ driver's license, circa 2004:

Monday, March 14, 2011

One More For Anthony

My daughter mixed this up and asked me to throw in on here for you:

Bad Dreams

God, i had a bad dream last night.  It was dark and twisted and i got bad news that really freaked me out, then i was behaving all weird and the opposite of how i should've been reacting.  It was all quite bizarre and irrational.  You know dreams, though.  They sometimes make us aware of our internal conflicts.  And yowza, am i ever having internal conflicts right now. 

Worst part of the dream?  I was working retail.  In a clothing store.  With the person with whom i was in conflict.  I think he was my boss, too.  Pttth.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Love this Man! Why People Leave the LDS Church by John Dehlin

Friday, March 11, 2011

Music for Anthony

Skrillex: Scary Monsters and Nice Sprites:

Freestylers: Cracks (Flux Pavilion Remix):

Flux Pavilion: Voscillate (Roksonix Remix):

Darude: Sandstorm (Vaski Remix):

Harry Ft. Skrein: Medison (Bare Noize Remix):

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Nature Moment { can't stop ROFL'ing }

Sunday, March 6, 2011

The Sound of No Words (10,000 Butterflies)

Kayso, i can be kinda picky about music.  I like lyrics; i'm a word girl.  I like the emotion words evoke in me.  So, when i was challenged to "get" the emotion in a song with no words, i grumbled.  Finally, i relented, and listened.

Click to follow along:

Coming from the strings of this single guitar, i heard a love story.  I felt the rising emotions that come with falling in love.  The newness, the unknown, the uncertainty, the deepening of emotions...tender feelings growing.

Then, it intensifies, the emotions swell.  It asks, what's next?

There are ups and downs, uncertainty, fear...then again, the tenderness.

A storm is building; darkness enters.  The tenderness struggles to find its way back to the light.  The darkness consumes.

The tenderness returns, because it always will.  This love can't be destroyed.  Even if it's hidden from view, it's still there.  There's a melancholy sadness about it, although it ends in hope.

Sometimes it seems hope is all that's left. 

But love always remains.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Rolling in the Deep

her voice! her voice!

The scars of your love, remind me of us.
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling...
We could have had it all....

Friday, March 4, 2011

sprawled sleeping

I love this little monkey. More than I can say.
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i've been thinkin' about my doorbell; when you gonna ring it? { lol'ing at this commercial }

Thanks to Norm for posting this video first! :o)

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Testing New Floor

Got a groovy new piece of flooring for foe toes. Whatcha think?